Audhu billah min ash-shaytan ir-rajeem
Bismillahi 'r-Rahmani 'r-Raheem
Ati` Allah wa ati` ar-rasula wa uli 'l-amri minkum
Are you adult or are you children? [children!] [a young child says “children”]
As long as you are following the Sunnah of the Prophet (s) you are on the track of adulthood. If we are not following the Sunnah of the Prophet (s) we are on the track of childhood. So you choose. You want to be on adulthood or on childhood. [adulthood] [adultery]
Childhood is not better - there is no responsibility. Adulthood too much responsibility. But if you want to be with the Prophet (s), dunya and ukhra you have to be with adults. If you wan to be with the whole other human race, normal common element then be child. So he taught to his students. Their advice, awliyaullah to their student is they tackle the problem of your ego. Because our ego is a big hump or on our back. And we don’t look at it. We only look at others. That is hwy one day, Sayyidina Abdul-Khaliq al-Ghujdawani قدس سرّه, he is from the children of the Prophet (s) and that is one of the main saints of the Naqshbandi order. He said to his follower, that is one of his students - and that student is usually one that he gives him hardship. Awliyaullah like to give hardship to one or two of their students - always. They like to keep beating them. It is only you can see 2, 3, 4, 5 he gives them a hard time. That means that they are so close to the shaykh, so near that the shaykh is relaxed when he is “beating” them up with his words. The others might run away.
So one day he said to one of these students that he is giving him a hard time, “I want you to go to the cemetery to take some lessons.” He said, "On my head, O my shaykh! You are sending me to cemetery I am going to cemetery.” He went to cemetery to make ziyarah to those how had died. He went to gate of cemetery and found it locked. And there was someone sitting on the gate of the cemetery. That one said, “O! What are you doing here?” He didn’t say to him, “O leave me alone!” In adab he said, “I came to make ziyarah.” “Ok then go in.” He said, “The door is closed.” He said, "No, it is open.” And the door was open. That one was Sayyidina Khidr. They entered the cemetery and the first grave he came to was the grave of a scholar 85 years of age. And you know when the mureed, the shaykh gives them an order they feel they are peacock now, “the shaykh gave me an order now, I am, I am, I am the… bigger than the whole world.”
Both of you.
“I am Antar ibn Shaddad. Because the shaykh gave me an order.” What, the shaykh gave you order? He wants to cut you down to pieces. So he was standing by the grave and reading Fatihah and du`a and the other said, "No, no, no you don’t need to do that.” The one who was on the fence, that was Sayyidina Khidr but the mureed doesn’t know. He said, "No you don’t need to do that. That one is already pure; he died a child.” He said, "No you are mistaken; he was 85 years of age.” The other says, “No he was two years old.”
What would we do if that happens. We would curse him to his father to all his ancestors. We would if we have a knife give him a poke. He said, "la hawla wa la quwatta illa billahi ’l-`aliyyi ’l-`adheem” then he said, " I will go to the next grave never mind. “ and that was very nice grave, two headstones and green very nice plants. On the Sunnah of the Prophet (s).
Then he saw the name of a scholar who died 75 years of age. Sayyidina Khidr said, "that one was like the other, but this one is a little older. He was two and a half years old.” Now this man is not happy, he is struggling. And he is feeling should he shout or not. [He told himself:] “Never mind. My shaykh sent me to visit the graves and to take lessons. Whether they are very old or 2 years old is not an issue.” So from one grave to another grave seeing and that one was telling him that not one of them had reached maturity. The highest age they reached was 9 years. So that mureed doesn’t want to argue. He returned to his shaykh.
“Did you make ziyarah?”
“Na`m ya sayyidee. I visited all these scholars and I took many lessons.”
And who was there beside the shaykh and veiled himself sitting beside Sayyidina Abdul-Khaliq al-Ghujdawani قدس سرّه, listening, but veiled himself.
Then Sayyidina Abdul-Khaliq al-Ghujdawani قدس سرّه said, “did you meet some other person there?” “Yes, I met someone, but I don’t know what he wants.”
Just then Sayyidina Khidr revealed himself to that mureed. He said, “It was this one! Catch him before he runs away. He was giving me a hard time. Each scholar he was saying is 2, 3, 4, 5 years old and all of them are 65, 75, 85 years old.”
Then Sayyidina Khidr was saying to the Shaykh, “O Abdul-Khaliq al-Ghujdawani, that mureed is the worst I have seen in my life, he doesn’t have any wisdom. I am telling him the age of these mureeds and he doesn’t accept anything I tell him. He is garbage!”
If that happens in the presence of your shaykh what will you do? You will try to defend yourself. But they don’t listen to you. Don’t think you are going to be given sweets and candies when you take initiation. They are going to give you Zaqqum. That tongue is the one that makes you to go to hellfire, this one and the other one.
قال رسول الله : من يضمن لي ما بين لحييه وما بين رجليه أضمن له الجنة.
The Prophet said, “Who can control for me his tongue and his private parts I guarantee for him
Then Sayyidina Abdul-Khaliq al-Ghujdawani قدس سرّه began to revile that mureed, and he said, "O my brother I am sending him to cut wood and to cemeteries and … in order he doesn’t pollute his brothers. He is the worst mureed that I have.” They are both cursing and looking at his heart, how is his heart going to change. When the shaykh and the other shaykh are shouting at you and humiliating you in front of everyone you are finished. You begin to have doubts and you say, “I didn’t do anything. They want to blame you on something that you didn’t do in order to open for you the door of patience.”
This is how they open to you door of
Why these people go up - why do they call them mountain climbers? They go up and it might be they die up there.
They are going up and up and up on mountains and they know it is difficult but they like to go up in order that they say about them that they reached it. And how much difficulty they encounter to do that? And when they reach the top they will feel as if the whole dunya opened before them.
Awliyaullah have mountain that they want you to climb for akhira. And they open for you there visions that you cannot imagine. And they were shouting and cursing him. He was not hearing anything as if he is deaf. His heart is connected to his Shaykh. His heart he is not seeing Khidr or not Khidr. He is only seeing the heart of his shaykh and his love to that heart. And they were both giving him a harder and harder time and then the Prophet (s) appeared. He said, “Enough and it is too much. If you cut him to pieces then his love is not going to change, give him his trust.”
This is how they build you up. They don’t want to build you on your ego. If they build you on ego it will fail.
Contractors build building steel and cement. If not then the building will sink. They don’t want to build you on ego over ego. Then the building will fall down. So he says, Ya Ghulam! You saw all the students with turbans. All big turbans. You missed it with all these old men 85, 95 years of age. All of them sitting together and enjoying and pictures been taken and smiling. All these big ones. All of us are big ones.
He said no, no finished. You give him his trust. There is no more ego, his heart is connected to you. That is why they say “ghulam, ghulam.” Don’t think you reached the highest level still you are a child. We are still in the level of childhood.
O ghulam! If you don’t carry within you Islam, on its real basis, you are not carrying within you iman and you are not carrying within you ihsan. Islam is the basis the structure the five pillars. As long as you are struggling with them you are ghulam, you cannot come up more than that level. If you don’t have Islam in your heart there is no iman in your heart. If there is no iman in your heart there is no perfection in your heart. If there is no iman there is no ma`rifah in your heart. If your Islam is completely perfect it means you submit.
This one, every day this one tells him be here at . What time he comes. 4:45. Finally this one gets fed up. He doesn’t wait anymore. He comes without taking him. This one was your test in Ramadan. If you had submitted to that you would have got your trust.
They let you go the whole Ramadan questioning you and letting you to complain and complain and complain because they want to reward you. But you were not able to keep it up. Last week you finished. You got the explosion in yourself. You lost your trust. This one was so near that Mawlana will open on his heart. They sent this one as a test for you. And if that one had been patient on you and come early he would have got his trust. But both of you lost. They make you lazy to get…
You see how they work, awliyaullah use tricky ways. He never thought about that.
He was coming happy, complaining about you. And this was happy because he was torturing this one. So both of them they lost. This is an example. Be careful, you don’t know where they are hiding for you behind the door and …
That is why, O ghulam, don’t think don’t use the mind. Until they establish the mind.
Wa min allah at-tawfeeq, bi hurmatil Fatiha.